The past month and a half have been exhausting - work has been taxing and when I come home, five-ish, I have about five or six hours with Luke and Clementine before I drop off into a dreamless sleep and wake to do it all over again. I'm tired despite having a baby who sleeps all night almost without fail. Once in a while she'll wake up at 4, take a bottle, and fall asleep for hours. (In general, she sleeps from 11 pm to 8 am, wakes to eat, and is back asleep til 10. We hit the jackpot. She is a champion sleeper like her mama.)
I find myself working for the weekend. What to do with these precious weeknight hours? I miss my hobbies - cooking, reading- and the hobbies I aspire to - learning to sew, playing the piano, gardening. I am gripped with a desire to split myself into several parts, each fully 'me', but each pursuing an interest/calling:
- Being a homemaker, making organic purees with the food mill, planning meals so that the chicken from one night is used in a new and equally delicious dish the next night (planning to attempt with this new book), and so on. Composting. Actually running and managing a household with planning and care. (This is an interesting editorial on neo-traditionalist households in which mothering is a "demanding, full-time endeavor, requiring [all of their] creativity, energy, and ingenuity.")
- Reading reading reading! journals and books to become a scholar and a worker bee.
- Craft maven extraordinaire making all sorts of wonderful things. Planting plants. Sewing little jumpers. Painting terra cotta planters half neon. And such.
- Professional Class Taker: ceramics, photo editing, letterpress, conversational Spanish, knife skills and in the sports/fitness categories, tennis lessons and tap dancing and barre and the weightlifting-to-music one (Powerflex at the gym formerly known as Bally's.)
From the Overdue Realizations desk: I will probably never learn to play the piano, or get a master's degree in science writing. And that is all right.
From the No Pain/No Gain Bureau: inspired by 1) a $25 registration fee Groupon and 2) upcoming Air Force fitness test and 3) daily unpleasant game of 'weight, weight, don't tell me!' with my scale, I am going to start training for the SA Rock and Roll half marathon with the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society. Looking forward to meeting some new people, raising money for research, having a workout plan with a concrete goal in mind. AND HITTING YOU UP, DEAR READERS, FOR $$$$$$$$$$
But that's later. Now is to snuggle with C ... while reading about the recent Pappenings in women's health.
Hope you are having a great week, all! What are your goals? How do your alternate selves spend their day?